What is the problem and why I feel sad

My parents and my siblings are the first people in this world who gave me love and support. But I had to come out from my town at young age to pursue higher education, achieve career dream and fulfill some responsibilities. Love, care and affection were almost forgotten to me. It has been ten years since I left university.  Since then I am moving from one place to another one for work; Left the country five years ago. I was lucky that I found few really good friends in my university days, work places and all the places wherever i lived or currently living. Most of them are far away and busy in their life. We do talk sometime but rarely meet each other and our conversations are getting shorter and shorter.

  

I have spent three decades of emptiness. Pardon me, I did not say complete emptiness because it would be injustice to my family, my friends and to those who tried their best to fill the love and care in my alone life. I did not opt for a life being alone. My loneliness is result of few incidents in my life.  After three decades of my life with limited love, care and affection I am suddenly into a place filled with love, empathy, compassion, care, Mother Nature, spirituality and peace.  Meeting such lovely people here. I can’s my express my feeling of joy and happiness in simple words when I spent some time with them. 

Well when everything is so nice; what is the problem and why I still feel sad. What is causing me to sleep at 11.30 pm and wake up just after three hours at 2.30AM; I can’t sleep after that; I feel scared, stressed and insecure. I think I am sounding like person who can’t digest happiness and this could be true but I am not so sure.   I feel problem here is when I am in the company of someone my happy state of mind get ignited and energized.  I think it might be natural for mind to look for more happiness. And this could one of the reasons that I wake up in midnight and feeling like something is missing. I try to sleep but I couldn’t. Mind is still searching for the laugh, the smile, the conversations, company and many more things.  None of these are materialistic things. It’s all feelings.  

   

All my friends, family and well-wishers, I am sorry to write something emotional. Please don’t be worried about me. It’s just feelings which I thought to write and share with you all. I hope i will get better with coping up emotions. I know you all have your own life, priorities and ambitions. I also don’t want you to compromise your life style to make me happy which would be very selfish on my part. I am brave, strong and I am fine :)

Om Shanti Shanti Shantih | Om Peace Peace Peace 

Thank you my Friend

Since last few weeks I wake up at 6.30 AM and I leave the bed about 6.45 AM.

Today I woke at 6 AM from a beautiful dream of being at one of my friend's home town. I have never been to my friend's house but I was present at my friend's beautiful house in my dream. I met  friend's parents, sisters and few more people were there as well. Everyone was very kind and nice to me. They all were listening to me very patiently.
 

I woke up from the dream with smile on my face. I could feel my heart was warm and I was so happy. I know why i had this beautiful dream. First i love this place called Cathedral cove and yet i have not been there with my two failed attempt to reach there. Second and the most important reason is; yesterday evening my friend said to me to take me to Cathedral Cove. 

Being eldest in my siblings, I don't remember when was the last time when anyone asked me to take me someplace which i like. I cant forget the expression of my friend. The expression which made me feel the child inside me. I was touched. I think i should have hugged my friend but i am stupid, all i said was "Thank you".

My friend you are very kind and very nice person. You are legend! I want to go to Cathedral Cove with you. Lots of love and big hug. Thank you my friend. Thank you :)

 

Simple Curry Recipe

Cooking Time – 30-40 minutes

Half kg of vegetables or meat can serve 2-3 person with cooked rice. 

Ingredient –

1. Vegetables such as Potato, Kumara, Carrot, Cauliflower and Green Peas etc. You can add or use just chicken or fish if you like.  Quantity of Half kg of vegetables or meat. *You can also cook combination of vegetables and meat together. In this case yo u can take 60% vegetables and 40% meat. Make sure while cooking, you put meat before vegetable because meat will take longer time to cook. 
2. One big onion, 4-5 pods of garlic, small quantity of ginger
3. 1 can of chopped tomato or 3-4 fresh red tomatoes
4.   Cooking Oil to sauté onion, garlic and ginger etc.
5.  1 tea spoon of Curry powder, make it 2 tea spoon if you are want bit strong curry or if you are cooking meat.
6. Mixed Italian herbs.
7.   Green coriander leaves for garnishing

Precooking –

1. Chop vegetables if you are adding vegetables.
2. Chop onions, thin chop or crush garlic and crush ginger.
3. Thin chop green coriander. 

Cooking – 

Use a pot so you can stir easily. Put pot on stove. Put one table spoon cooking oil. Put crushed or chopped garlic when oil is hot. Keep stirring till garlic becomes little golden brown. Now add chopped onion keep stirring till onion also become little golden brown. Now you can add crushed ginger stir for one minute.  Add curry powder; quickly stir for 4-5 seconds. Add chopped tomatoes and mixed it nicely. Now you can add 1 and half tea spoon salt or as per your taste.  Add your vegetable or meat and add water to make curry. Mix a quarter tea spoon of mixed Italian herbs. Put the lid on, Cook it for 10-15 minutes. Make sure vegetable or meat is cooked.

Once cooked, put chopped green coriander on top of the curry for garnishing.

Your curry is ready. Serve with boiled rice :)

Om Shanti Shanti Shantii

Om Peace, Peace and Peace

Coconut Rice Pudding ("Kheer") : vegan and gluten free

Recipe for 5 serve; cooking time approximate 30-40 minutes

Ingredients –

1. Almond milk: 1 liter
2. Grated coconut : 100 Gram
3. Brown sugar: 3-4 teaspoons but you can add more if you want it sweeter.
4. White rice preferably Basmati:  100 Gram
5. Sultana/Raisins:  100 Gram
6. Cashew Nuts: 40-50 Gram (Broken or whole: I bought whole but later broke it myself)
7. Green Cardamom : 5-7
8. Vanilla extract essence : 2 drop

Preprocessing – 

Boil the rice in separate pan make sure rice is fully cooked.  

Grind or crush the green cardamom, idea is to grind the seeds inside which contain the essence of cardamom. 

Cooking – Step by step

Boiling Milk

Take a big pot so you can stir comfortably. Now start with boiling almond milk for 10-12 minutes. Keep stirring in between.

Mixing green cardamom

Now add grind green cardamom into boiling milk. Keep stirring for 2-3 more minutes.

Adding/mixing sugar and rice

Now add the sugar and rice keep stirring for 2 more minutes.

Adding/mixing sultana

Now add sultana/raisins keep stirring for 2-3 minutes.

Adding/mixing cashew and grated coconut

Add cashew nuts, grated coconut and keep stirring for 2-3 minutes.

Mixing vanilla essence

              Finally add 2-3 drop of vanilla extract essence and mix it thoroughly for 2-3 minutes.

Now your dessert is ready. Enjoy :)

Om Shanti Shanti Shantii

Om Peace, Peace and Peace